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Life changed and so did I. Looking forward to a brave to new world.

Over the course of two years my life has changed significantly. The transition from a teenage boy to an adult is quite a drastic one. There are many more things that I can do, some good, some bad. Now, I have a love interest, I have to manage all my money and most importantly, I have to learn to fit into society. 

The thing that really makes adulthood hard is, there are no white or black decisions anymore. Everything is grey. Every decision you choose makes someone happy and someone else miserable. I've been struggling with this, if I dare say, problem for quite sometime now. My mind is never at peace, it's always racing with thoughts. 

It's not all bad though, I have the rest of my life standing in front of me. I'm at the driving seat. From now, my fate is in my hand. It's scary when you think about it but it's also exciting. I want to be a successful person, not just in terms of career but in terms of a human as well. I want to make the people around me happy. I have started thinking about other person's prospective. This is what growing up is, I think. 

I will miss these days some day, when I'm old. I'll miss making EG sheets with my friends, I'll miss playing guitar and singing at the middle of the night, I'll miss playing counter-strike and eating momos. I am thankful to everyone, even my enemies because without them I won't be here.  

-Neelotpal

 

The Endless Road

                                          I keep walking down this endless road,

                                                    I hope of finding something real,

                                               I Don’t know what to hope or expect,

                                                      I can’t tell anyone how I feel.

                                               I have never seen this place before,

                                                            It is strange and cold,

                                                    but I feel strangely compelled,

                                                  To walk down this endless road.

                                                       What am I running from?

                                                Home, love, happiness or myself,

                                           Maybe I’ll find the answer along the way,

                                                   Maybe I’ll finally heal myself.

                                                            Don’t wait for me,

                                                         It might take a while,

                                                  I will never be the same again,

                                             But I’ll always remember your smile.

 

-Neelotpal Nauriyal

Just a thought

                                                             


                                                   The Lost Ways

                               I still miss the sound of birds,
                          Chirping away in the long lost trees.
                                  I still miss the long walks,
                            And the cold and soothing breeze. 

                                   I miss the simple smile,
                            Which meant more than words.
                                    I miss the lost silence,
                                   Which was once heard.

                                   Deep down inside me,
                                A child still wants to play,
                           He is haunted by the shallowness
                                Of the new modern ways.

                                                                     

                                                                   -Neelotpal Nauriyal